But I think at this point I have to admit that my art has become a phase for me instead of a regular thing.
I haven't drawn more than a five-minute doodle in almost two years.
Clearing out a year's worth of messages that was SUPPOSED to result in me coming back here just resulted in me getting another year's worth of messages stacking up further degrading my motivation to do stuff here.
My half baked idea of unfollowing almost all the Tumblr blogs of artists I've found through Deviantart - including the blogs of friends from here - in an attempt to motivate me to come back here regularly backfired and I've lost out on months of contact with people.
I really don't know if coming back to Deviantart will ever be a regular thing for me again to be honest, and I feel really bad for that because every single one of you I've been friends with is someone I want to remain friends with in some capacity but the whole spending my online time split between finding a regular job (because haha fuck me most archaeology jobs at this point in my career are hopping around from project to project as hired work which can result in weeks or months between paychecks) and Tumblr, on top of the aforementioned lack of art for nearly two years, makes me feel like I'm not really gonna be a part of anyone's lives and vice versa in any big capacity anymore. And that really sucks but I know it's my fault
Listening to: meh
Watching: jack shit
Playing: who cares? not me
Eating: I come here like twice a year nowadays
Drinking: so this part of journals is pointless to me